This pattern went on through high school, college, and well into my 20's. I binge ate my way through 2 pregnancies, each resulting in 70lb weight gains. I tried to get a handle on myself post pregnancies by lifting some weights, doing quite a bit of cardio, and was able to lose a good portion of my weight, but I was still following an extremely unhealthy restrict/binge cycle. My inner battle with my body image became so strong it took over my thoughts. I became obsessed with achieving the "perfect" body and was willing to do whatever it took to get there. I wanted and needed more for me and my little family. Luckily, I found a distraction.
I found CrossFit in my mid 20's and learned just how much weight training would help me shape the body that I wanted. CrossFit lit a fire under me and I began to enjoy pushing the limits of my physical strength. Although I still battled discorded eating, it was a huge step in the right direction! I continued to push myself and I loved watching my body change. My body was getting stronger and my mind was getting ready to follow.
Fast forward to July 2014 when I decided to push my body and mind even further and enter my first NPC bikini competition. I worked out like a crazy woman, did an insane amount of cardio, followed a diet that consisted of about 10 different foods, and had a cheat meal on weekends. Which, you can guess... turned into a full-blown 3000-4000 Calorie binge day. I was able to get down to 8% body fat for my first show and I thought that I finally had the body that I wanted. Now, ask me if I was happy. No way! Not one bit! I couldn't even enjoy food anymore. I couldn't go out to eat without having crazy anxiety and I had extreme guilt around any food that wasn't 'clean'. If I took even a bite of a donut it would make me downward spiral and I would end up eating 5 or 6, maybe even the whole box. I was out of control. I was desperate to find something to snap me out of this vicious and unhealthy cycle! I absolutely loved competing and wanted to continue, but I knew there had to be a better way.
My life changed the day I read an article about flexible dieting by Dr. Layne Norton and I saw proof that it worked by following Laurin Conlin's journey. Flexible dieting seemed too good to be true, too easy. I remember reading, "your body recognizes food as carbs, proteins, and fats. Not 'clean' or 'dirty'." The light bulb in my head immediately turned on. I thought to myself, "so you're saying I can have a donut everyday and still be fit?" I was hooked from that very day. I took the time to learn about food and what it does for my body and it was the best decision I could have made.
I'm happy to say I have been binge free since the day I started flexible dieting. It was challenging at first, as anything worthwhile is, but flexible dieting has truly given me my life back and the body I have always wanted. I was able to continue competing, but in a healthy way. I went from being 208 pounds at one point in my life to an IFBB Bikini Pro, and now a Bikini Olympian. I have achieved this by incorporating a balance of nutrient dense foods and my beloved treats into my diet everyday. No more skipping out on ice cream with my family because it doesn't fit my meal plan. The day I chose flexible dieting was the day I chose to live!
I'm now on a mission to help others find balance with life, food, and body! CoriFit is my platform to help inspire, motivate, and educate as many people as possible. I can't wait to hear your transformation success story!
With love and finding balance,